I'd have to tell him all about how men are superior to women and that he should make every decision of my life. I never really believed it, but I told him that anyway, because If I didn't, he wouldn't "train" me... He never really did. we have been separated once and for all, and I'm safe and sound and on the way to being thin. Yesterday I didn't eat much and worked out for forty minutes, today I haven't eaten anything yet but I'm planning on half of a low fat pita and a cup of carrots I've worked out a lot today and am writing this sunbathing in my back yard on a graduation present. The main difference between this new start and when I started my blog is I learned my biggest mistake: earlier, I would set goals of days, such as losing ten lbs in four days, or twenty lbs in a week and a half; when I wouldn't meet these unrealistic goals I'd get depressed and eat more and say " fuck it! Ill start a new diet ion a week.." We'll now I now to take it day by day. I'm not setting time limits on my weight loss and I'm just going to really think about things before I do them. I've started looking at things in terms of addiction. I really think everybody has an addiction, it doesn't matter where they come from or how clean they think they are. I've realized that I'm addicted to food and I'm using the twelve steps of food the same way an alcoholic would use the twelve steps, but instead of detoxing and cutting myself off completely at first, I'm weaning myself off. I'm very excited to commit to this lifestyle more strongly now. More later.
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Dinner was delicious. It was about a 500 calorie dinner, and then I ate some chocolate. Since I did about a 500 calorie workout this morning, my total calorie balance is probably about 200. Not too terrible; the chicken is healthy and everything, but I could have done with out the chocolate. I need to work on making the calories I eat healthy calories. I mean a calorie is a calorie but I'll get skinny faster if I make the calories I eat veggies and fruits.
