Ana friends?

Today I had about 15 raspberries with a teeny tiny bit of yogurt.  A friend at school gave me five sour gummies, and for dinner I had five cherry tomatoes and an apple with peanut butter.  It totaled to about 375 calories today. So it wasn’t bad but I didn’t really exercise.  I didn’t even go to weightlifting because I had an eye appointment.  I know I could exercise right now but it hurts to so much as move my head and I’m not really sure why.

Today I was sitting with my friends during lunch, which is rare because I usually sit in the locker room during lunch eating my tiny meals and reading.  It’s just easier to avoid temptation that way.  So I’m sitting there during lunch and two of my friends start talking about this “diet” that they’re doing in which two days a week they’ll eat 400 calories.  Clearly the last thing I did was tell them not too because I’m not a hypocrite, but I don’t know how far they’ll go with it.  A while ago one of them was talking about how they want more will power over food.  This causes me to be conflicted in many ways.  On one hand I know that It would be good of me to tell them to stop now because diets like that are a slippery slope, and on the other hand I want to ask them about it because I love my Ana buddies, but nothing could help more than having the friends I see everyday be anorexic too.  I wouldn’t have to avoid them like the plague anymore and the support would be a lot more productive I feel.  I think I’m going to wait and see how they do with it and I’ll look for the signs.  I just don’t want them to have to go through what I go through.  Maybe I’m just over reacting to assume that anyone who diets now days has an eating disorder.  I just don’t know how to go about it.

I think I’m cutting this blog short because I need to fold laundry.  If anybody has advice I would really appreciate it J Thanks!