Doctors, Dads, and Diet pills.

     I've been home the last two days with a really dry cough(when I'm sick I usually don't write because there's nothing interesting to talk about.  Since I've already missed a lot of school this year I thought I should go to the doctors office so that I could get a note for school.  The doctor was weird and I felt like he was flirting with me, because he was talking about my tongue.
     Lately I've been wanting to get some diet pills.  I think they would really get me going onto the weightloss planet.  Unfourtunately I'm not 18 so It's really hard to get diet pills.  You can't exactly ask a friend to buy them or they'll know somethings up.  Then there's the problem of me not owning a credit card to buy things online.  I decided to get a pay pal card thinking that that would just be simple and easy but boy was I wrong.  I bought the card, put 100 dollars on it, and found myself incapable of activating the card.  I called, created an account, went on the website, you name it I tried it.  It still didn't work so I talked to my dad thinking he'd just put his name on it.  He of course was too busy to give me any attention and as soon as I started talking about it, he just started reading out loud what he was working on... So that was frustrating. 
    Just now he walked in the room.  I said "The stuff I was talking about is on the counter there."  He just said, "K" and walked out of the room.  See what I mean about feeling pretty ignored by everybody?
    I need diet pills though.  And when I say need I mean NEED.  Gradution is in a month and I'm as fat as a whale.  I was so pumped to go and buy diet pills today and now I feel let down.  I feel like I will never reach my goal.  Not now not ever.  And I know that that's not the attitude to have right now but I can't help it.  If I couldn't lose ten lbs this month how am I ever gonna do It next month?  And how in the world am I going to be able to do it in the summer when I'm smoking and don't have school to attend?!  What if I become my worst nightmare and gain forty lbs over the summer?!  I expected to be soooo skinny by now and all I feel is fatter than ever.  Someone needs to start commenting on these and give me some weightloss advice!

Thanks for reading this short blog!  Tomorrow I'm going to tell you about my dream for next year