Wow haven't blogged for days.

Jeez it seems staying on track with eating isn't the only thing I have problems with.  Apparantly I've been too busy wallowing in self hate and sleeping.  Oh the joy. Apparently Heather can't even hang out with me when I'm inside her house.  Yesterday I watched gilmores girls alone and stoned in her house, while she was at the bars.  But I'm not complaining; it's better than being alone and stoned at my own house. 
Today I'm fasting. I just can't believe how I'm eating during the work week.  I usually only give myself a little leeway on weekends, or actually, I binge.  which I'm trying to quit anyway, but maybe since it's spring break I have it in my head that it's ok to eat.  I love making excuses. 
That's really all that's happened in the last couple days which is probably why I haven't really written, but now I remember something.
Two nights ago I was invited to do a dance thing at Memorial Park.  I expected it to be like a dance off thing with a big crowd n' stuff.  There's a dome thing there so that's where I was expecting it to be.  It actually was behind the dome thing next to a dumpster and a total of like six or seven people were there.  It was really awkward because I'm not very close to any of them, I just went because I was tired of being at home.  Only two of the guys could actually dance and look cool doing it, and one of those two guys I've liked since the beginning of the year.  He was my first kiss in sixth grade and after that we didn't really talk until this year.  He told my friend he was interested in me at the beginning of the year, and when we hang out, outside of school (not often), it's pretty fun, but during school he hardly talks to me and never flirts so it's extremely confusing.  But I'm also not sure if the only reason why I like him is because I don't think he likes me back...  God I feel so stupid talking about guys. I hope you readers don't mind, but when I write these, It's me trying to sort things out for myself. I hate to admit it, but I don't even proof read these.  Anyone who has the time should look up "crave you" by flight facilities. That's my emotion about this kid haha I'm such a sap.
Oh and also here's another tip!  If you're wanting food, fuck normal gum.  I'd invest in bubble gum.  You can get all kind of different flavors and your mouth will be so much more occupied.