Yesterday my mom texted me and asked me if I wanted to go to breakfast. I was a little skeptical but I said ok. Since it was so strange to be planning on having breakfast with my mom, that was the only thing on my mind. In fact, I was thinking about it so much that I forgot today was my first day at the coffee shop. I got a call at eleven thiry from the owner, "Hey there, we were just wondering where you are. We expected you here at noon..." I was so frantic. I hadn't even had breakfast with my mom yet. So I just dried my hair and scrambled over there. I wasn't expecting Heather to be working that day, which is stupid because it was farmers market day, but there she was so my day went from bad to worse. You guys probably think I'm over reacting to this whole Heather thing, but she just makes me more angry because she doesn't even really hide that she doesn't care about me.
The whole time I was working, I had tears brimming in my eyes, and not once did she ask how I am, or if I'm ok. When I was getting about ready to leave my boss was talking about paper work, and bank account stuff and I just burst into tears. I'm blaming the fact that I'm on my period for that one. It wasn't until the tears had dried, and I was about ready to leave that she hugged me. I don't even know if she said good bye or not. I just said see ya. She hasn't texted me or asked if I'm ok or anything. It's things like this that make me wonder why I'm still alive. If what I thought was one of my best friends doesn't even ask how I'm doing when I'm in tears, who the hell is ever going to care about me. Yesterday I was walking home from work and a car sped in front of me and all I could ask was "Why didn't I jump infront of that?"
Today I'm being melodramatic; but all I'm saying is, don't be surprised if one of these days the posts quit coming.
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