I'm going to make my own little sign of "binge free for ____ days" in my room. I need to try anything to help me binge less. That sign will be another little reminder. I said before that I'd only smoke after seven. That really only works for the first day I make that rule. Usually the rule I go by is, if I have weed I'll smoke it. I doesn't really matter the time of day, so I think I just can NOT buy weed until summer. If someone else offers it sure, but I can't buy it. With out it I can focus on my will power more. Another potential ana buddy texted me, we'll see how that goes. Right now I still just have Anna.
Spring break is coming up next week... I still look like a fatty but I deserve it. All I do is eat it feels like. Tomorrow I'll start my super strict diet and excercise thing again, rather than do it in phases of like three days really strict and then three days eating pretty much normal ammount of calories (the days I consider bingeing). One thing I'm trying with Anna is taking pictures of the scale and sending that, because the scale can't lie. I think that'll help. For the most part it was a pretty uninteresting monday... Sorry todays couldn't be more eventful.
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