...FLU

I was unable to write a blog yesterday because if I would have tried I probably would have puked all over the computer.  I’ve gotten sick so many times this year it’s absolutely ridiculous.  Yesterday for breakfast I had a piece of toast with nothing on it and a banana.  For lunch a Satsuma orange and for dinner a few cups of lettuce with balsamic dressing, some tomatoes, and some chicken.  The day’s calories totaled to about 416 or something.  I worked out with my wrester friend again.  We focused on abs and I’m happy about that.  We worked out for an hour and then I walked 45 minutes to work, where I walked around for another four hours.  During work is where I started feeling nauseous, and on my way home I almost revisited my salad.  I got home and was in tears I was feeling so terrible.  My step mom I guess didn’t bother to talk to my dad and just assumed I was having more emotional problems, so this morning I woke up to the note “If you need to talk [yada yada….]”.  The thing about her is that she never asks how I’m doing unless it practically looks like I’m gonna die so don’t go thinking she’s the sweetest most caring lady ever.  After reading the note I threw it away thinking that’s the logical thing to do, and an hour later when I’m back in bed a get a text from my dad “finding that note [your stepmom] wrote in the garbage can was sad and discouraging”…. I’m sorry but what the hell?  Was I supposed to frame it or something?  Last time I checked pieces of useless paper go in the garbage. Please feel free to correct me if I’m wrong.  I’d love to get people writing back to me (not necessarily about this.  But you get it.)

        On a different note my dad got me chicken noodle soup (about 150 calories per can) and cough drops (15 calories each... uh oh).  For breakfast I ate some plain toast and a banana.  I’ve eaten a can of soup already and plan of having the other one for dinner.  My one weakness is saltine crackers.  I love filling my soup with them but there are 60 calories in five of them. This is a little bit of a problem for me.  So I literally ate about half a thing of saltines with my first bowl of soup.  And because of this I’m not having any with my dinner soup.  If I have dinner soup at all.  This morning when I stepped out of bed I was 119.2 hip hip horray!  But now that I ate all those saltines and am too sick to work out I feel like I’ll weigh in the 120’s again tomorrow, which is why I’m temped to not eat dinner.  What’s the saying? Skipping dinner makes one thinner?  I’ll probably be home tomorrow too so I could just save the other can for tomorrow.  And the more I think about it, the more sense it makes.  I’ll probably end up doing some exercises anyway.

        I heard that lack of sleep affects peoples diet in that they’re more prone to giving into cravings and binging.  If this is true I’m gonna be screwed because I’m going on my fourth day without barely any sleep.  If anyone has any tips on how to avoid this besides sleeping obviously (trust me I’ve tried). I’d love to get some feedback.  Thanks for reading :)